"I feel guilty for feeling like this
I am so advantaged in life and I’m so privileged compared to others.
I don’t live in poverty nor am I abused
I am physically healthy and I have the right to an education
My family love me and I don’t live within conflict nor do I live in a warzone
Yet I still feel like shit
And I should be so grateful
For how good my life is
But all I feel right now is how a good life is being wasted on someone who would prefer not to have a life at all
And that’s just not fair
But really I just want to feel.
To feel love
To feel pain
To have ambitions
And feel attractive
Or just wanted
Even to feel sad
Because sad is healthy
What I feel now is empty and a constant need for suffering
To be good enough.
But really all I am is scared
Scared of decisions
Of life and the future
Changes and strangers
But right now I know something
I am going to feel like this until I find peace
Weather that be in death or not
I haven’t decided that yet"
"Just because someone desires you, it does not mean that they value you.
Read it over.
Let those words resonate in your mind."
so me and my dad are watching a documentary about a man that killed his children and the presenter turned to the camera and said ‘how could anyone ever think about killing their child’ and my dad sat there looking straight at the tv and said ‘trust me its not difficult’ he then looked at me and sighed
(Source: awkwardvagina, via mesonoxian-basorexia)